{"id":175270,"date":"2021-06-06T23:33:42","date_gmt":"2021-06-06T14:33:42","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.adfwebmagazine.jp\/?p=175270"},"modified":"2021-06-06T23:33:42","modified_gmt":"2021-06-06T16:38:25","slug":"porn-is-real-life","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.adfwebmagazine.jp\/en\/art\/porn-is-real-life\/","title":{"rendered":"Porn is Real Life"},"content":{"rendered":"

<\/i> I\u2019m suspicious of my own attraction to artwork featuring nudity, trying to discern if I only appreciate it for its subversive, erotic qualities<\/h3>\r\n

I<\/span> can\u2019t decide if I think the photograph is pornographic or if it just has pornographic elements. My indecision is a holdover of my evangelical Christian upbringing, I\u2019m certain. I can\u2019t shake that moralistic Midwestern mindset that any artwork featuring nudity can and should be seen as pornographic\u2014a gateway to carnal, sinful indulgence\u2014and shouldn\u2019t be prominently displayed on the walls of a gallery or museum, which are meant for bland, idyllic Impressionist paintings and abstract, monochrome sculptures that you can point at and say, \u201cI could do that.\u201d All our pastors were adamant: pornography is immoral and has no place in our public or private lives. We\u2019re supposed to abstain. No one did. We found clever ways to hide our consumption instead. A lot of the men I knew growing up kept their porno magazines in old milk crates tucked away in some mildewy corner of the basement or, more commonly, they had a stack in their hunting blinds out in the middle of the woods where their wives or moms would never go. There\u2019s fuck-all else to do while you\u2019re sitting in a flimsy wooden box several yards off the ground surrounded by the stringy, diaphanous webs of the many jewel-toned spiders hanging from the ceiling and the rank odor wafting from the faux leather desk chair that\u2019s started to peel and reek of mold.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n

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Paul Mpagi Sepuya, Screen (0X5A3705), 2020. Image courtesy of DOCUMENT.<\/p><\/div>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n

Most of the magazines I found were soft-core porn and belonged to my cousins, who shoplifted them from gas stations or ferreted them from my uncles\u2019 stashes. The magazines rarely showed penetration. Mostly they were filled with spreads of topless, busty women (big tits seeming to be the primary preoccupation of white, rural American men through the 80\u2019s, 90\u2019s and 2000\u2019s at least.) The women sprawled on satin-sheeted beds and leaned over the leather seats of motorbikes, using their arms to push their veiny, silicone-stretched breasts together, wearing mini denim skirts that just barely revealed the pink and red folds of their vulva. Sometimes there were shots of girls with their mouths hanging open while her hand was wrapped firmly around the shaft of a cock. They were comical. You knew that no girl in her right mind was ever so surprised by a cock that she let her mouth hang open as wide as the exhaust pipe of a semi-truck. These were my favorite images. Although, I was disappointed that the man\u2019s face was never visible, just a cross section of his thighs, his erect, veiny cock, and a small sliver of his abdomen. Some of the pages were wrinkled and stiff with the crust of yellowed, dried cum where one of my cousins had cum on the image. Whenever I snuck away to peruse the magazines, I was so nervous that someone might sneak up on me that I sat rigidly in the chair and trained myself to distinguish between the sound of birds and squirrels scuffling through the grass and the sound of one of my uncles or cousins approaching. I wouldn\u2019t have gotten in trouble, but I couldn\u2019t bear the idea of them knowing that I was looking at the naked girls and (more concerning for me at the time) the few shots of naked men.<\/p>\r\n

All of this to say, I\u2019m usually suspicious of artwork featuring nudity. Or, more accurately, I\u2019m suspicious of my own attraction to artwork featuring nudity, trying to discern if I only appreciate it for its subversive, erotic qualities. I feel a similar sense of shame as I walk through DOCUMENT<\/a>\u2019s small gallery space, overly conscious of how long I linger in front of each of Paul Mpagi Sepuya<\/a>\u2019s photographs, nervous that the two other gallery goers will break the stifling silence smothering the space and accuse me of being a pervert for staring too long. Neither of them acknowledges my presence. I hate the idea that I might reduce the work to a sexual element, but several of the photographs are implicitly sexual. They are like the pornstars flashing just a brief glimpse of their kittenish vaginas at you.<\/p>\r\n

One of the photographs Screen (0X5A3705) (2020) features two figures faintly visible behind a translucent manila-colored screen of fabric. The fabric is sloppily cut, the jagged, uneven lines of where the scissor snagged on the textile visible along the bottom of the photograph, revealing a tantalizing view of the dark, wooden blocks and the legs of two Black male figures. The camera is placed in front of the fabric and tilted on its side, like a dog that\u2019s tilting its head in order to hear better. The standing figure is looking down at the second figure, who is sitting on one of the plinths. The second figure is holding the shadow of the first\u2019s cock in his palm. It\u2019s hard to discern, but the faint outline makes me think they have a sizable cock. It\u2019s impossible to tell if it\u2019s flaccid or erect; the first figure\u2019s cock and the second figure\u2019s forearm are indistinguishable shadows. The thought that his cock might cast a shadow that pronounced makes my palms sweat. I lean closer, my nose almost touching the glass. I\u2019m careful not to accidentally brush against it and leave a smudge. I imagine how weighty the cock must feel in his palm, the sensation of the blood pumping through the appendage as it stiffens at the touch. Perhaps it twitches, and has a life of its own.<\/p>\r\n

Yet, I find myself most intrigued by how the two figures appear to be looking at one another. The first looking down and the second looking up. They seem to be making direct eye contact. This makes me laugh. Here\u2019s one figure literally palming the other\u2019s cock and yet their line of sight suggests that they are, at least momentarily, unperturbed by their situation. They coyishly avoid acknowledging the sexual act that\u2019s unfolding, the sitting figure pretending as if there isn\u2019t a taurine cock pulsing like a heart in his palm. The image is static: We are only able to imagine what happened next. The lens of the camera stares back at us, unblinking. The camera stares back at us, saying: you filthy voyeuristic pervert, I\u2019ve caught you in the act of wondering what\u2019s behind this film of fabric.<\/p>\r\n

I am reminded of a passage from Brandon Taylor\u2019s novel Real Life, which I read that morning before driving to DOCUMENT. Near the beginning of the book, the protagonist Wallace leaves a tense gathering at the park with one of his friends Miller, who claims to be straight, and the two end up having sex for the first time:<\/p>\r\n

\u201cWallace couldn\u2019t remember the last time he had lain with someone this way, in that nearly innocent configuration that comes before sex where both parties pretend to want everything other than that, letting their bodies wind up to the point of unbearable tension.\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\r\n

Like the characters in Taylor\u2019s novel, Sepuya\u2019s photograph Screen (0X5A3705) is unbearably tense. The two figures can\u2019t remain like that forever. Something has to come next. Holding a cock in your palm isn\u2019t inherently sexual, but the image is charged with possibility. What do they do next? Does the sitting figure adjust the position of their hand, gripping the cock and mechanically pumping it? Does the sitting figure lean forward and slowly slide it into their open mouth? Does the sitting figure lean back, pulling their hand away, letting the cock flop against the standing figure\u2019s thigh? Does the standing figure stoop down and bring their lips against the sitting figure\u2019s, kissing them passionately? All and none of these are possibilities. They can only exist as fantasies. The photograph is fixed and will never reveal what happened after the moment of the shutter click. I decide that several of the photographs in Sepuya\u2019s exhibition are softly pornographic. However, I want to be clear that I don\u2019t mean this as a way to degrade or demean the work, but rather to understand the cleverness of the arrangement and composition. I want to name why they make me feel shameful.<\/p>\r\n

I decide that they\u2019re pornographic because of the tension that Sepuya creates through concealment and suggestion, especially in the antiseptic, asexual setting of the artist\u2019s white-walled studio. When we look at porn, we know that it\u2019s fabricated, hours of choreographed, mechanical footage condensed into short snippets or shots that the producers know will excite us. Porn mirrors our desires to us. Sepuya\u2019s photographs work similarly. We know that they\u2019re fabricated. The evidence is right in front of us: the tripod, the camera, the mirrors, the drop cloths, the dollies, the plinths. If Sepuya was simply trying to experiment with the formal qualities of photography, he could have used any subjects. Yet, he repeatedly photographs male-presenting queer people mostly naked. Nudity charges the image with meaning. Just as porn bypasses language and directly targets our fantasies, Sepuya\u2019s photographs capture the sensation of desire, making us acutely aware of the scenarios that excite and titillate us. They make me feel ashamed the same way that porn does, that my desires might be that easily reproduced and presented to me. The artist\u2019s studio may be a contrived space, but the photographs depict a sense of our lives unfolding. They might be staged, but the photographs are saturated with real life.<\/p><\/article>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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